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Hoy en mi vida!

For those of you who are not subscribed to my newsletter, this is what you missed.

It’s been a while since I last talked to you. After all the obstacles that have come in my path, I have not given up. My series of short stories are coming along very well, and I am sticking to it. Also, have a novel that I am working on, should be completed with all books by the end of the year.  Will not publish any of them right away. My goal is to publish with a traditional publisher,  so this may take a while. If it doesn’t happen within six months after books are completed, I will go the self-publishing route.

I would like to have at least one book published professionally.

Writing and having a creative mind is lots of work, effort, time and patience. I have set myself a daily writing goal of 1600 words if possible but no less than 500 words.

It’s either getting up an hour early before work to write or soon as I arrive home from work. Trust me 3:30 A.M. is best, my brain is fresh and ready to go. Sometimes, I may miss a day of writing, so I make it up the next time. But, must stick with it, to meet my goals.

Movies, Television and Reading Etc.

So, as you all know, I am a big movie and T.V. buff.
GAME OF THRONES is back, Winter is Here, very excited about this, it has been a long wait. Ghost is out of Jail, but Charlie is dead, head bashed the F**K in with a dumbell!  R.I.P.Charlie Murphy.

For all you Netflix fans, Chewing Gum(this is so funny stupid), Bloodline, Wentworth (awww that big bitch the Governor has nine lives) , Friends From College to name a few are outstanding features.
Amazon Prime still has me hooked almost more than Netflix. If you have Prime, check out these shows (Sneaky Pete, Mad Dog, Trapped, Transparent). You will get hooked.
HBO take a watch at Ballers, Big Little Lies (excellent novel turned series by author Liane Moriarty), Insecure featuring Issa Rae (Hilarious)

Have not been to the big screen much since I have the Firestick. Last week went to see Wonder Woman, wasn’t impressed, it was fair. My take on it was that it did not have enough action and this new Wonder Woman was not sexy enough in the outfit, nothing like Linda Carter.

Just my Siskel and Ebert opinion.  

Okay, moving on, enough about movies and TV because I have just too many to list.

Reached my book reading goal for this year early, I lowered the bar to a goal of 15 books unlike last year 50, and I read 51.
Now, I can just take my time and read when time allows around my schedule. Reading short stories, fantasy, sci-fi, YA and fiction novels.
Just reading it all, variety is good. It helps me as an author to brush up on my writing and creative skills.

Have not vacationed at all this year thus far and it has been difficult, just working every day and writing. Normally I would have taken one trip by now, but this August we do have a beach vacation planned. Can’t wait for that break and much-needed relaxation and fun. Feel that Ocean breeze, the sand between my toes and that awful hot sun burning down on my skin. It’s all worth it!

I forgot to mention that I had a new grand baby her name is Ella. Isn’t she lovely!  And she thick.

Also, we have my grand-dog HoneyBun(HB). She THOT trainging. Lol

 

Food for thought, something to think about:

Remember no one is perfect, not even those higher up. Choose your idols wisely or better yet, idolize no one. Those at the top can quickly fall back down to the bottom. Worship no man, woman or child, but GOD.

Sometimes you may cross paths with another and think this person is smart, intelligent and got their shit together and this may be true, and on the other side, can just be an outward appearance.  Just because someone may have more than you, don’t ever make them better that you.

All of us, everyone has flaws, faults, and weakness, so let no one make you feel that they are superior to you. Build your own self-esteem and motivation. Sure, there may be certain things you can learn from another, but don’t let it or that person be something or someone you cling to for growth. Be you, Do you. You have an individual quality within you that make you who you are, that makes you unique.

Until next time, take care.

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WHAT WORRY MAY DO TO YOU

Hey, all! It’s been some time since we last chatted, but I hope all is well with everyone. This blog will be a bit lengthy, so please bear with me.

What worrying too much can do to you?

How many of us are worriers? How many are not aware you are a worrier?

For a long time, I was a worrier even to the point that it affected my health in ways such as constant stomach problems, always feeling nauseated, facial breakouts, weight loss, and hair loss. This all started when I became a victim of abuse and domestic violence.  I suspect it was the fear and not knowing what’s to come next. How do I protect myself, my children, finances?  How do I continue to work, maintain some shelter, and ensure my survival? This was only the beginning of my worrying, and it just progressed over the years as the situations worsened.

Finally, after a visit to my doctor who explained that my hair loss, and everything else that was going on with me, was due to the stress and anxiety.  The doctor advised speaking with a counselor, someone who was non-judgmental and unfamiliar to me. My doctor told me that I was an “inner” worrier which was not good and would continue to jeopardize my health.  After a few counseling sessions, I realized that this was the best thing that I could ever have done for myself. Trust me when I say, you do NOT want to hold on to past negative experiences.  It will eat you alive and tear away at your being.  You do your best try to protect those close to you but what about protecting yourself? Anyhow, after counseling I began to worry less and was able to focus more on family and living. I have been trying to get this meditation thing down, breathing exercise and praying more to keep those nasty boogers called stress and worry out of my life.  And I have to say, it feels good to feel good.

As I got better, my hair grew back, I was able to maintain, my stomach problems went away and my face cleared up.  Some people may think speaking with counselor/psychotherapist means you must have been crazy or something, but you don’t and you’re not.  It is not a sign of weakness but strength. Sometimes you just need to talk, get “it” off your chest, open up about things kept quiet.  It would surprise you how much better you’ll feel.  There’s something enlightening about unloading all the suppressed anger, the sadness, the hurt or whatever your non-physical issues may be.

Many years have gone by since I was in a bad place, but I am definitely in a better place, feeling better about myself and not worrying as much, so I think.

Sometimes I believe that I am no longer a worrier because I stay pretty much happy these days and try to avoid all the drama that surrounds me barring the drama I watch on television. But, there are also times when I believe that worry is still lying just beneath the surface when fighting off to stress from family issues, relationship issues (feeling caught in the middle or being pulled from each end) or just concerns of the heart. Heartbreaking at times.

Other things that worry me from time to time is my writing – will I get my stories completed, will it read good, will I get my books edited and published.  Writing can get financially exhausting when you’re going at it alone. The difference between some self-publishing authors and celebrities is that when a star decides to write a book or are approached to write a book, literary agents and publishing companies seek them out and give them all the necessary people and tools to make it happen. I won’t let this stop me, and I will continue writing and trying to perfect my skill until I get tired of writing and throw in the towel, wave the white flag or scream uncle. In the meantime, everything is everything and I am hopeful that all else will fall into place.   I ask the question. How does one just turn off the worry button?

Another source of discontentment is that I have two other grandchildren that I don’t get to see, not by choice, and they are growing up without me.  This, as well as, family issues, family division, stressful work environment and other nonsense that is out of my control also try to contribute.  But I actively look for different ways to manage.  For the more personal things, I try to separate myself from the issues, but at the same time, I try not to come across as uncaring although it may seem that way to some.  As much as I know how worrying jeopardizes my health mentally, emotionally and physically, this is something I prefer not to go through anymore.  I was recently diagnosed with other health issues to include osteoarthritis and hyperthyroidism.  Both of them just suddenly popped up out of nowhere when I previously had no symptoms or signs.  But, as much as I dislike the idea of having these condition, it is good that they are under control now and I am coping with them.

I have realized, and I hope that everyone can understand, I cannot solve everyone’s problems.  I can only help where possible and give my opinion when asked.  Everyone is responsible for their own lives.  It’s hard enough keeping up with everything going on my own life, let alone trying to direct someone else’s life.  This additional stress and worry are not worth the price of my health.  I have to take care of me which means I must relax, release and remain happy.  Once I am happy, then I can share happiness.  But the opposite is true also.

I don’t know what you may worry about, but if you find yourself worrying to the point that it’s taking a toll on your life, your relationships, or even worse, your health, you owe it to yourself stop the insanity and try to find a solution that works for you to reduce your worrying.  Otherwise, it will be your health that is impacted when the issue was not yours, to begin with.  We have to make a change before it affects our health or, even worse, sends us to an early grave.  Somethings we can impact.  Something we can’t impact.  In measured doses, we should limit our concerns and worries to the things we can impact.  And furthermore, we must avoid making the small issue into extra-large issues if/when it’s not necessary and doesn’t move us closer to a good place.

I started reading “How To Stop Worrying and Start Living” By Dale Carnegie for the second time because sometimes you need just that little extra help or push.

Let me just give you a few paragraphs, paraphrasing, and quotes from the book that has given me food for thought.

Professor William James, the father of applied psychology had a formula for stress, and that same idea was expressed by Lin Yutang, a Chinese philosopher who said, “True peace of mind comes from accepting the worst.”

Rule 2, according to Willis H. Carrier, is if you have a worrying problem, you can address them by applying this magic formula found in doing these three things:

  1. Ask yourself, “What is the worst that can possibly happen?”
  2. Prepare to accept it if you have to.
  3. Then calmly proceed to improve on the worst.

Dr. O. F. Gober states, “Fear causes worry. Worry makes you tense and nervous and affects the nerves of your stomach and actually changes the gastric juices of your stomach from normal to abnormal and often leads to stomach ulcers.”

Dr. Joseph F. Montague says, “You do net get stomach ulcers from what you eat . You get stomach ulcers from what is eating you.”

Dr. Harold C. Habein of the Mayo Clinic says: Can any man possibly be a success who is paying for business advancement with stomach ulcers and heart trouble? What shall it profit a man if he gains the whole world-and loses his health? Even if he owned the whole world, he could sleep only in one bed at a time and only eat three meals a day. Even a new employee can do that-and probably sleep more soundly and enjoy his food more than a high-powered executive. Frankly, I would rather be a carefree person with no responsibility than wreck my health at forty-five by trying to run a company.

Mayo brothers said, “nervous troubles” are caused by emotions of futility, frustration, anxiety, worry, fear, defeat, despair.

Plato stated that “the greatest mistake physicians make is that they attempt to cure the body without attempting to cure the mind; yet the mind and body are one and should not be treated separately!

Worry can put you into a wheelchair with rheumatism and arthritis says Dr. Russell L. Cecil a world recognized authority on arthritis. There are four commonest conditions that bring on arthritis:

  1. Marital shipwreck
  2. Financial disaster and grief
  3. Loneliness and worry
  4. Long-cherished resentments

Worry can cause tooth decay, Dr. Wiiliam I. L. McGonigle ADA that, “unpleasant emotions such as those caused by worry, fear, nagging…may upset the body’s calcium balance and cause tooth decay. It can also cause acute overactive thyroid problems. The thyroid gland, that gland that regulates the body, has been thrown out of kilter. It speeds up the heart-the whole body is roaring away at full blast; like a furnace with all of its drafts wide open. And if this isn’t checked, by operation or treatment, the victim, may die, may “burn himself out.”

Who would have known such a thing about tooth decay? Not me.

Dr. Israel Bram said to ask yourself, “What emotional disturbance brought on this condition?” if you don’t stop worrying, you can bring on other complications: heart trouble, stomach ulcers, or diabetes. “All these disease, “are cousins, first cousins.”

Do you love life? Do you want to live long and enjoy good health? Here is how you can do it. “Those who keep the peace of their inner selves in the midst of the tumult of the modern city are immune from nervous disease.” According to Dr. Alexis Carrel

Dr. Carrell also said, “He does believe that a cheerful mental attitude helps the body fight disease, thanks to these challenging, fighting words:  Face the facts: Quit worrying; then do something about it!’”

“Those who do not know how to fight worry die young” -Dr. Alexis Carrel

Can you do this? Can you keep the peace of your inner self in the midst of the tumult of a modern city? The answer is “yes.” Most of us are stronger than we realize.

Of course, I could go on but, you will just have to read the book for yourself.

What I am writing:

I am currently writing a few short stories, no release dates now but coming soon.

What I am watching:

“13 R3asons Why” (Netflix) everyone should watch, parents, teachers, teens and counselors

“The Handmaids Tale” (Netflix)

“Harlot” (Hulu)

My Favorite Regular Series: Rebel, The Blacklist, Blacklist Redemption, Scandal, Grey’s Anatomy, Fargo, Designated Survivor, Rogue, Blackish, Modern Family, Empire, PTL, Better Call Saul, Jane The Virgin, Gotham, Into The Badlands, Reign, Quantico, Outsiders, Underground, Greenleaf and caught up on season one of Imposters (remember I am open to all genres of movies)

My 2017 Reading Challenge on Goodreads:

I am reading book 13 out of my 2017 reading goal, 15. Last year my goal was 50 books and I read 51. This year I set the bar lower,  because I am a very busy woman, although I am sure I will surpass my goals.

On Another Note:

We shouldn’t worry about tomorrow or what it will bring and just make the most of today.  We should, however, give some attention to saving for our retirement years.  And if you are not investing in your future, it’s not too late to start today.   You can start putting aside $5, 10, 20, 25.00 per week, per month whatever you can afford.   You can even consider investing in a 401k, certificate of deposit (CD),  savings account, or stocks/bond.  If all else fails, but only as a last resort, put some funds away in a piggy bank, shoe box, hole in the wall, or bury it in your yard.  Just kidding on those last suggestions.  But the point is, start saving officially somewhere.  Once you make the commitment, you won’t even think about it and once one that’s out of site out of mind and build your nest egg. If you don’t, who will?

I hope you don’t plan to work your entire life, and I am sure that you wouldn’t want to.  At some point, you will want to stop working and start doing something you like – like seeing the world, starting a new business, spending more time with the grandkids, pursue a new hobby, remodel your home, drive a nice car, etc.  It’s up to you to make this sacrifice for you.  Truth be told, you can’t depend on another to take care of you when you get old – nothing is guaranteed.  Just something to think about and look into, don’t put off tomorrow what you can do today.

You want to feel and look like this –

 

not like this – 

 

Until next time, peace, love, respect, and unity

“It’s Funny How People Need You Until They Don’t”

“HE’S NOT MY PRESIDENT!”

Hey, guys! How is everyone doing? Another week of sharing what’s in my heart.

I was watching the series “The Designated Survivor” with Keifer Sutherland (President Tom Kirkman) my Jack Bow-Wow. He’s not my President when I heard those words, I immediately thought of our current president. In this TV series, this man was sworn in as president because he was the designated survivor, the current President and entire staff had been killed in a terrorist attack.

He was not elected nor voted into this Presidency. Tom Kirkman, didn’t ask for the position of President and didn’t want it. He didn’t have any knowledge of running a nation. Never in the armed forces. No congressional background what so ever and Congress, the governors, and the people were so disrespectful towards him, would not address him as Mr. President,  but as Mr. Kirkman, just all kinds of rudeness. This man is a good and honest family man, trying to do what’s right by the people and for the people, but no one wanted to work with him. Every which way he turned he hit a brick wall. Eventually, he gained the respect and trust of a few aids. Not sure how this story will unfold. But this is just for TV.

Mr. Trump wasn’t a designated survivor, and this is no TV series. He didn’t have the background that many sought in a President-elect. I suspect that the people were seeking something different, someone, that would be for the people, for our country. You get so tired of hearing all the political speeches, the promises for our nation, blah blah blah…presidential choices were slim to none, but the people voted.

I see and hear these words “He’s Not My President” so often about the situation with our new president, President Donald Trump.  

Donald Trump!  People have got all upset depressed, ranting and raving about this man because of what they see of him on television or what they have heard about him in the media.  I do not know Trump.  I do know his words and tweets have a tendency to get a lot of people upset.  One reason why I don’t read his tweets or listen to his speeches.  I believe what he does and what he says are for one purpose – to rattle everyone’s cage.  They should ban him from all social media.

This congressional party unlike no other that I have saw, is a joke, a real circus act Among the Powerful. A bunch of clowns, jumping through hoops and juggling etc…

But I cannot, and will not, let this person get me upset; there is not a damn thing I can do about what he says or does as our new president EXCEPT pray for the best.  I understand he may not have been who we wanted in the white house, but what’s done is done.  Let’s move on, make the best of it and just focus our energies on those things which are within our control.  Otherwise, you’re just wasting your time.

But let me be clear, I may not like President Trump, and I can’t say that I don’t like the man,  don’t know him, but if he asked me to come work for him in the White House, Hell Yeah I would jump at the opportunity. Would look at as a once in a lifetime opportunity that may give me the opportunity to get to know the person within the President.   Honestly, I’ve never known of or heard of any past or present President until they became the President of the United States. Outside of that, I  wouldn’t be able to distinguish him from a can of paint.  It seems that they have just said the things they feel the American people want to hear to get votes.  We don’t know who will keep their word and do what is necessary to make the country a better place.

It’s almost the same as meeting someone new and getting into a relationship; we honestly do not know this person.  I had never heard of President Obama until he ran for office, but I had known about President Trump from his TV show “The Apprentice” and his hotels, but still I did not know this man. I don’t believe he is a political person, nor has he ever been a member of the armed forces but he is a business man with plenty of nothing to say. I don’t watch politics, and I try not to listen to it either. Not a fan.

It’s like starting a new job; they make it sound so wonderful that you can’t resist the offer and so you accept the employment.  Later you realize the job is nothing like they described it and not only do you not like the job, you find out you don’t like the manager either.  Now you’re at a job that you don’t like, working for someone you like even less, but you have to continue going to work because you need the income to survive, until you can find another job that you HOPE is better.  But you deal with it the best you can, especially when no one is there to offer financial help or pay your bills.

I said that to say this, it is the same viewpoint we should have for our current President.  We have to deal with the hand that’s  given to us; he is our President (for now).  Thank God for term limits in this case.  May not like him, or what he does, or what he says, but remember he is only a man.  He is not God, and he is not a god.  Only God has the power to change things and people and situations, so we should pray for our new President as we prayed for our old President and Kept It Moving.

Not saying we give him a chance; some may end up liking him or not, but he were elected. Or, we can just let this Presidency run it’s course and see how it all unfolds. You know those sayings, what goes on in the dark, will eventually come out in the light. Give em enough rope and they will hang themselves.

It is good and bad in all of us; he is just another one. It’s hard to believe anyone in politics. It’s not always WYSIWYG there are plenty out here in sheep’s clothing. We cannot let one bad apple spoil it for everyone although sometimes there are more than one.  Everyone can’t handle being in authority, but every person new to a job should be given a full and fair chance to either shine or to fall flat on their ass.  But, we the people, have to hold these elected officials accountable to do what is right for the majority.  Being president of the United States comes with a lot of power.  The power to do great things, but on the other hand, the power to destroy great things.

Just as Diddy stated, not everyone can handle power which could lead to a lot Bitchassness going on.  But I’m paraphrasing.

In conclusion, I try hard to take life one day at a time and pray for the best outcome. I cannot and will not sit around worrying about what our president is or is not doing – that is out of my control.  I don’t claim to like political stuff and have never really understood politics.  In my humble opinion government has a tendency to look out for the government which is why we should look out for one another.  I just pray that the majority of governmental decisions are made for the people and not for the government. Stayed prayed up, it’s all we have.

A nation as great as ours has to have a strong government to ensure our high standards are, and continue to be upheld.  There is so much going on around us in the world today; it is as if the bible’s predictions of the end are starting to come true.  Everywhere you turn, there’s crime, senseless killings, homelessness, and poverty. But, my question to each of you is so how do we fix it?

He is your President!

I’ve always pondered this question, is the president actually for the people or themselves?

Again, there are just my feelings and opinions. Be nice; I know some of you will want to lash out.

Freedom of speech is AWESOME!

Share your thoughts and comments.

ALL LIVES MATTER!

Hey, all! I am back for another week to share with you what’s in my heart.

Although, I am a Black American of African descent. Despite my ancestor origins, I was born and raised in America.  I am no less American than any other race that was born and raised in America.  And I am no more American than those from other cultures who have chosen, against enormous odds and at incredible costs, to make our great nation the place they call home.

I believe that all lives matter – all races, creeds religions, and colors. We all bleed the same color blood and, whether American or some other nationality, we have to live with one another on the inhabitable planet I know of.  Becoming united as a human race should be everyone’s goal because, let’s face it, no one is born a racist, a bigot, a feminist, etc.   This division that we may sow, cultivated via our upbringing and feed by indifference and the company we decide to keep, is as devastating and silently traumatic to the bearer as it is the recipient of such nonsense.

Surely we can “act” like it doesn’t matter, but it is acting nonetheless which is sometimes so well played and well versed, even the actor has himself or herself fooled into believing that it doesn’t matter.  As Americans, we cannot afford “take the low road” lest we self-propel ourselves into the likes of a third world country.   Yes, America is the land of the free and opportunity, but our laws, our government and our justice system is all unjust, bias, and unfair.

My hope is that we, as Black Americans / African Americans, make a greater effort to come together to help one another instead of being jealous of one another or tear each other down rather than building each other up.  Yeah, we bitch and moan when someone of another race shoots one of our kids, but if you look closely, it is we who kill the most Black Americans / Africa Americans.

Yes, I am pissed at educational and economic inequality which leads to fewer opportunities which lead to despair and lost hope.  Then, we have the audacity to have kids and, by example, put them on the same course in life.  But change starts with us – now – in America. We have to start holding ourselves accountable, but more so, we have to start holding each other accountable to doing what’s right instead of doing what’s easy.  We are large in numbers, so if we do this, we may be able to reset the racial tone for our entire nation.  Just imagine.

Sometimes I hear people talk about coming from Africa and how we were brought over here on slave ships.  All that was back before my time.  I didn’t come over here on any ship.  As a matter of fact, there are some of Africans that do not care for the Black American cultures.  Sure, we may have the complexions and hair textures born of Africans, but those born in Africa and us born in the United States are two different cultures.  But I would no more be able to go to Africa and fit in with my traditional Black American ways than Africans could easily fit in America.  But I still consider Africans as my sister and brothers because this is where both our roots began.

Watching the Mandela story, even while in prison he requested that all Africans and colored were treated as that of the white prisoners. Also, when he gave his speech, he sought equality for all Africans, Colored, Indians and Whites. Therefore, we are of the separate culture. Don’t forget there are those who consider themselves white Africans, maybe not born of African descent but born in Africa. We have others that are the same shades of brown complexions, same hair textures, but of different cultures, to name a few: Britain, and London, and the UK, and Jamaica, and Haiti, and Spain and so on. Still, as an American, you could not go to any of these countries and expect to live in your traditional American ways.  Hey, I am just saying.

 

 

Which box do you check? We all mixed up in here one way or another.

 

And, by the way, I noticed while Mandela was in prison their daily prison routine was sitting outside chipping away at white rocks, why was this?

Can someone answer this question for me? 

 

 

 

And speaking of slaves, I cannot image what the slaves had to endure and suffer through to survive.  But will the struggle and the fight ever end?  It seems like we are still fighting that same many of the same things as we did 50+ years ago – racism, hatred, and injustice.  But we must continue to hold on to our hopes and dreams that, one day, all the fighting will finally make a difference. I know it’s sickening to hear almost every time you turn on the TV that another black life was taken or the unfairness of the justice system.  But the answer is NOT realized by going out in anger, hurting others, rioting or burn down our neighborhoods. Just another way of how we destroy ourselves.  Was this the ultimate plan by the powers that be?

We have to change our way, we have to change our attitudes, and we have to do the unexpected.  I can talk about this, but I have no plans to go out and protest for fear of the uncertain.  Things have a tendency to get escalated unnecessarily, and peaceful quickly turns to unpeaceful.  Dr. Martin Luther King promoted peaceful protests of non-violence so that our voice and our issue are heard.  Something we should all strive for as we collectively make our thoughts known.  It is not just a “black thang,” because many other races face the same or worse struggles with homelessness, poverty, deplorable living conditions, lack of clean water, adequate clothing, unemployment, etc.

If we take the time and make an effort, to look beyond skin color and really get to know one another, we just may find that we have more in common than you know.  Isn’t this the same thing that Maya Angelou quoted?

I do not see skin color.  However, I do see people.  And if another person who doesn’t know me don’t like me, I DON’T CARE – they just don’t know me.

Again, there are just my feelings and opinions. Freedom of speech is AWESOME!

Until next week when I speak of more what’s in my heart.

Be safe and have an enjoyable weekend.

Share your thoughts and comments but play nice.

 

 

SETBACKS, HOW DO YOU HANDLE IT?

Hey y’all. I know most of my blogging hasn’t had much to do with writing or books, but sometimes, I feel it’s important also to share what is in my heart. Hope that is okay with ALL of my subscribers 🙂

This week I registered online with www.dailyom.com to get advice on improving my health, fitness, and meditation. Ironically, I ran across this.

If you remember last week’s blog, I focused on accepting compliments. Anyhow, moving right along.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Although it wasn’t supposed to be a part of this week’s write-up, I must share a recent experience I had.
Monday was a sad day guys; I took my laptop to the Geek Squad (Best Buy) for servicing and was assured it would not affect any saved document files. After a couple of days, I opened the software I primarily use for all my writing only to find that my files were no longer available. It was so disheartening. I spent hours searching my laptop, looking for every file, every document, and every source to find my files, but no luck. After reaching my frustration maximum, it was time to take the laptop back to the Geek Squad to see if they could locate the files that were there before they did the “repairs.” The person at the customer’s service desk was very nice and patient and searched my laptop thoroughly, but to no avail. None of my files were found. I mean nothing – no previous versions… no restore points… NOTHING. It was clear by the look on my face how sad and devastated I was. The service rep was as very empathetic to my situation, but there was nothing else that he or I could do at this point – my files were gone. My five short stories in the making – GONE. And my novel-in-the-making – GONE. 
It was all I could do to pick up my laptop, hold it close to my chest with my arms wrapped around it, said thank you, turned and walked away slowly with my head held down. I was in deep thought, I was sad, my lips and chin trembled, and my eyes were starting to water although no tears fell. I said to myself I wouldn’t cry, but I also told myself that I just wouldn’t write anymore. After such a horrible loss, I convinced myself that 1) I don’t have it in me to begin all over again, and 2) I don’t have any backups or notes from the files I had lost. That was the purpose of the application I was using – to document and keep track of everything – my every thought and my every idea.
I got in my car, eyes welling up but still, no tears actually flowing, I drove home in a trance. My heart beating fast and in pain. Walking in the house numb and in disbelief, I began wondering and wishing, maybe the files are still in there somewhere. I walked inside just wanted to scream or hit something really hard – but I didn’t. Then I thought about getting in the shower, turn on the water and slide down the shower wall to the shower floor as the water runs down all over my body while I scream and cry my eyes out – you know, just like you see on TV. It always seems to make the ones on TV feel better. But, I just could not cry today for some reason; the tears simply would not come.
Accepting my reality, I took some deep breaths, put my big girl drawers back on and vowed I would just rewrite all my stories again; I will start over. After the initial shock had subsided, I adjusted, adapted and decided to move on. I remembered that this was just another one of life’s setbacks – another obstacle and another hurdle. I am stronger than this. I will suck it up and move on, but I will not forget how disheartening it all is. And I will be writing a letter to Best Buy Corporate office about how they fell incredibly short of living up to the service that they claim.

Found out that had to write my complaint on their website forum, which I did. No satisfactory there. I was told that if I were to read #’s 11/12 on the service order, I would have read that its the customer’s responsibility to back up all data and they are not liable for any loss of data. Well, part of this could be my blame for not reading the order, as I am always asking my children, did you read what it said first?
But I was told by the technician and assured that this was not needed because the repairs that would take place would not have anything to do with my files. When the service order was handed to me, the tech did not point out any language of the service order, he just folded up my copy and put in a sleeve and gave it to me. So, that is that.

I will look into purchasing a new laptop when finances are in order, but the good news is that I am writing again, starting over from scratch. I can say, it’s all behind me now.

Oh, on a funny note, if you read my book The Whispering of My Heart, This is what Chloe has been up to. She is reading now. Hahhahhhhh!!!!!!

 

I will share some other important thoughts and issues that have been on my mind with you next week. Until then have a safe and enjoyable weekend.

 

I want to leave you with this one thought: Isn’t it funny how people need you until they don’t.

Je Ne Sais Quoi!!!!

JE NE SAIS QUOI

Feeling a lil something-something / feeling some kind of way

Receiving compliments used to be something that was hard to accept. I have always been so critical of myself and sometimes negative about many things in my life.

However, over the years I have grown and become a more mature positive person. I have changed my “Attitude.” Like that old cigarette commercial with the jingle…

You’ve come a long way, baby

To get where you’ve got to today

You’ve got your own cigarette now, baby

You’ve come a long, long way

If you can remember back that far, maybe you weren’t born yet. I used to love that commercial. It first came out in 1968 when the very first cigarette made for women; its ad featured “New Woman” free of oppression, smoking proudly. Smoking Virginia Slims was freedom; it was liberation for women! In 1969 and 1976, the ad actually included an African American Woman. In addition, this was the last cigarette commercial to be aired on American television.

In 1978, Virginia Slims Light was introduced. 1985 New Virginia Slims 120’s, longest slim cigarette of all was introduced, and in 1987, the Ultra-Light 100’s were introduced.

You ask, what does this have to do with anything? It is more about the jingle than the cigarette. Just thought I’d add little history behind the cigarette since it was made for women.

To lay it all out for you is that lately, I have been in that Je Ne Sais Quoi, moment. Feeling good about myself and life. Things still may not be how I want them to be or expect it to be but, in a comfortable place in life right now, don’t need money to feel good about yourself just a little confidence, good attitude and self-esteem can you make you feel a certain Je Ne Sais Quoi.

Here are a few scenarios that I have come up with:

1) As she sashayed down the corridor, there was a woman standing in the aisle observing her with a friendly smile. She stopped and greeted her with a hello and kindly asked, is there something that I can help you with? The woman continued to look at her smiling, and to in her response, she said no, nothing is wrong, you just walked down this corridor as if you were just free not a care in the world. She didn’t understand what the woman meant by free or if it were a positive or negative comment. Therefore, she just replied “I am,” and the woman said with humor in her voice, I know that’s right.

2) Arriving at her morning appointment, confident, bright-eyed and glowing, she was escorted towards where her doctor was seated. As he turned and noticed her approaching, they exchanged good mornings and he gestured for her to have a seat. He said to her; you look lovely today, really lovely, I just love your ensemble, really nice. She said, thank you, nice of you to mention.

Thinking to herself, (I just threw something on didn’t care if it matched or not, it was a very early appointment and no one would see me, and I would be heading straight home afterward.) Nevertheless, she decided against stating her thoughts and just accepted the compliment and felt good about it. It was uplifting and a great way to start the day.

3) Receipt of a compliment from a friend of a friend who just wanted to acknowledge that she was a person with a certain mentality, positive, energetic, very independent, happy, smiling, good attitude, and a hard worker. Considered as a good help-mate and a friend. She found this to be much unexpected, as she had no dealings with this person and no idea that she was thought of in this manner. They were but merely acquaintances. The compliment was accepted with a sincere thank you and that was the end.

You never know who is paying attention to you. Still, Never Judge a Book by it’s Cover.

Compliments can stem from one’s attitude, how you interact with others, so on and so forth. Change your attitude; try to be a more positive person. We can only change what is in our control and the rest we have to let go and let God. Only he can change the things we cannot.

Try to hold your head up higher,  square your shoulders a little broader and walk little taller, have more confidence in yourself. Believe in yourself and try not to let others or things still your joy and happiness. Choose your battles.

When you feel better, you look better, when you look better, you feel better, and when you look and feel better, you act better. Attitude, positivity, self-esteem, and confidence – no time for low self-esteem–love yourself.

Not there yet but still moving forward and growing forward, one day at a time. Obstacles will continue to get in the way, you get over one hurdle and then here comes another one or two, and you know what, take it one at a time. Just keep going, keep jumping those hurdles. Life throws curve balls all the time, but you cannot let that stop you either, you are not a quitter, I’m not a quitter, life does not stop so keep going and pray for the best outcome.

Sometimes I get angry at situations, but I have to let it go. If I can fix it, fix it but if not, let it go. Some ask if I go to church? Let’s say, no, I don’t go every Sunday, but I go when I want to go. Doesn’t mean that I don’t believe in God because yes, I do believe in God. I know that he is my savior, my strength and my father in heaven, there is no me without him. Some may frown on that but it is my choice, and I have only to answer to him not man.

It doesn’t matter what you look like, what you have or where you come from,  attitude is key and plays a very important role in life.

I have learned to love myself! 

 

Share your thoughts; tell, what your Je Ne Sais Quoi is

 

What I’ve Been Up To 

Not too much lately. Still busy as ever with other things. Still writing, working on a few short stories and one novel. I do believe that I have major writer’s block. I have to stick with it or else who will write my stories? Haven’t watched anything new on television, trying to get back on a serious writing schedule. Back in the gym, it’s hard when you fall off. That’s all for now. Look for next weeks blog until then, mind your attitude.

Feedback on the new book cover of Slightly Bruised and a Little Broken has been positive.

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“NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT’S COVER”

HAPPY NEW YEARS TO YOU ALL. 2017 IS HERE, AND 2016 IS IN OUR REARVIEW. LET’S MAKE FRESH STARTS WITH CONFIDENT ATTITUDES.

WHAT’S GOING ON WITH ME SINCE LAST YEAR.

I have finally completed my grandkids middle-grade book. The cover and interior look great. I am putting a fresh face on my first book Slightly Bruised and a Little Broken. I am currently still writing my short stories. Trying to sit down and write as much as possible, so that I can achieve better writing skills. Practice, practice, practice.

WHAT I’M READING

The goal this year is to read 15 books. Last year was 50, and I achieved that goal by reading 51 books. This year, I need to do more writing.

Reading Book 2 of Fritz Fombie and the Frightful Feats of Courage, by T .E. Antonino middle-grade level but cute for all.  I enjoy reading his books about this eight-year-old girl Fannie and her friends.

Read several books by Travis Simmons; he writes fantasy novels. Well told stories and he does a really great job with his writing.

I receive most of my books free from the authors in exchange for a book review. They are available on Librarything.com, and I enter giveaways on Goodreads.com. I don’t accept the books if I have no intention of reading or giving a review. Reviews are most important to authors especially those new authors such as myself; it’s one way to get our books recognized and get us known as authors.

I never know if I will like a book or not, but no matter what,  I will read any book to the end and give a review. Some books may have slow starts just as some movies but gets better as you continue. Then there are some that just don’t interest you at all and you quit reading. That’s not me.

Check out LibraryThing if you are a reader, request a copy, read it and review it. In order to leave a review on Amazon you must have an account.

WHAT I’M WATCHING???

This is the good part. I was gifted Amazon Prime for Christmas from someone I adore very much. I had previously purchased the Amazon Fire Stick. It’s like having the best time ever double dosed. I am happy feet dancing and soul clapping.

However, this has caused me to miss watching my regular television shows, and Netflix is now on the back burner but not forgotten. So, not as much Netflix and chilling going on here but rather much priming.

On Amazon Prime:

I watched the series Goliath with Billy Bob Thornton – a big time lawyer turned into a drunken washed up lawyer but still sharp as a whistle. Two thumbs up and five stars. One of my favorite actors.

Sneaky Pete, I won’t go into description, you just have to watch – lots of twist and turns. A must see. Two thumbs up and five stars.

Mad Dogs, excited to be getting away on vacation all expenses paid, visit a friend you haven’t seen in a long while expecting to have this awesome time. Well, think again and expect the unexpected. Every time you take one step forward, you get pushed back two more. What in the hell is happening?

Watch this movie; it has some funny, much drama and questionable friendships. Two thumbs up and five stars.

On Hulu:

Catching up on season one of Outsiders. No review yet, just on episode four and so far all I know is that its trouble in the mountains.

On T.V.

I watched the New Edition Story. Much I wasn’t aware of, things that the public never knows, that goes on behind the scenes of celebrities. This group of young men went through much heartache, pain, betrayal, trust issues, friendship, and loyalty. Finding out who was actually working for you or aginst you. Another prime example of how you treat people.  Although Bobby Brown put them through hell, in the end after all those years, they remain the best of friends. I think part of it had to do with their backgrounds, where they came from and being man enough to come and say I’m sorry. My best part was the end when they were on stage at the BET show. They were having a good time and for all the actors new and old who played the parts of new edition did an excellent job. Kudos to them. One of BET’s best shows and characters were well. Well done.

My Thursday night shows have returned, the Shonda Rhime trio. Greys Anatomy, Scandal, and HTGAWM. Have to catch up on that. Black Sails is back. Quantico is back. The Blacklist is back. Jane the Virgin is back. Tyler Perry shows are back. The Affair is back. Sleepy Hollow is back. Homeland is back, Carrie with her crazy ass. Uughhh so many shows so little time.

Haven’t been to the movie theater lately, but I do plan on seeing Hidden Figures and Fences. Who knows, may just have to watch it on Fire Stick Kodi. Why not?

Cable prices are high as F**K! this way I could lower my bill by half getting rid of some cable boxes and dropping to basic package plan. One day will remove cable completly but until then still figuring out this Fire Stick before making that final move.

NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER

Judging someone or something before you actually know facts can sometimes be mean and hurtful. I have been thingk about Karma latley. That bitch Karma the what goes around comes around KARMA. You know her, right? Bottom line we don’t need to be judging anyone when our home isn’t in order. Over the years as I have gotten older, I have realized some things about life and Karma. Karma isn’t something you want to come back on you, so, be mindful how you treat others and how you talk to them. Try to make the motives behind your intentions from the heart. Let’s build each other up instead of tearing one another down. This is not just words but something I will put into practice.  Let’s move forward, 2016 is behind us and 2017 is here.

Ain’t no stopping us now, were on the move.

Until next time, peace love and respect.

Petite

 

 

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#Tune In Tuesday

Lots going on theses days. Let’s get to the updates.

Last movie I saw. 

My daughter and I went to see “Badder Santa”, was not what I expected. The first Bad Santa was hilarious but this second edition gave a few chuckles. As I have always stated some movies are just not meant to be remade or have several parts.  I give it four **** because of Thurman Murman has gotten older and has not changed a lick but still making sandwiches.

What I’ve been watching on Netflix.

Watching The Crown another King Henry and Queen Elizabeth era. No reviews on it just yet just started watching.

Watched “Paranoid,” it was pretty good another British detective mystery story. I enjoy the British movies, cannot wait for Luther to return.

The first time I have watched a Korean film. I must say that I truly, truly enjoyed watching, Descendants of the Sun. This movie is a must watch, such a complete love story. So much determination, trust, respect and honor. I fell in love with the star cast Joong-ki song, this guy here was on point and on time. Joon-ki song was such a loving, caring and protective person. The other main character Goo-seo Jin plays Joog-ki’s best friend, they are both military special forces. At first, you wouldn’t understand his actions, but it all comes together as both romances unfold. After this movie, I have decided to watch other Korean Netflix movies. The storyline was clean, no sexual content or language. I give it a 10. Must watch! It does have subtitles, so you need to be able to watch and pay attention. Very romantic.

Now, what’s going on with my writing and books?

Started back writing my short stories, had stopped for a long while now. I am a little upset and disappointed at my children’s book illustrator. He does good work, but it has been almost a month now, and his timeframe was supposed to be two weeks. I would hate to cancel this gig with him because I lose money on the fees that were paid and starting over would push my time back even further. I have several times explained this to the illustrator. My goal was to have the children’s book published by Christmas. Not happening. If I don’t hear from the illustrator by tomorrow, I will bite the bullet and cancel and go with another illustrator and pray I won’t go through the same thing.

I have been using sellers off the site Fiverr, which is a great site and the cost is reasonable, just do your research on the seller before buying. Everyone is not who they say they are. Fiverr offers a large variety of sellers and gigs that you may be seeking such as, editing, voice overs, blogging, website design to name a few.

Beta-reader or No Beta-reader????

I am leaning towards hiring a beta-reader for my next books before releasing. I need a third pair of eyes outside of my editor and myself before publishing anything else. I need to get as close as possible to perfection. That’s where a beta-reader comes in, they read your manuscript and critique it for content, grammar, character, the structure so on and so forth. But, I am back on the grind with these short stories, so let’s see what the outcome will provide. Open to any feedback you may have.  Would be greatly appreciated. If you know of anyone in any of these fields I have just mentioned above, please feel free to refer.

Reached My Goal! Yayyyy!!!!!

Not sure if you remember me mentioning that I had a goal to read fifty books this 2016 year. Well, today I finished book #50! I have read so many different genres from various authors, and it was only less than five books that I didn’t like. Most were interesting reads. I love reading. I won’t set a goal for 2017, but I will continue to read. I still have about twenty-five books to read that were received from new and seasoned authors that I promised to give reviews. Read on!

It’s Beginning To Look Like Christmas.

Keeping my list short and on the budget this year. You have to learn to be frugal about holiday shopping because money will get away from you quickly and next thing you know, finances are low, and bills have to be pushed back another month. Can’t keep up with the Joneses nor can we keep up with every new electronic device. Some things just have to wait. Learn to appreciate what you have, you will treasure it more. Don’t just give because it’s asked for but because it was well deserved.  Learning to be responsible and earning things that you receive is all a part of maturity.  This for folk that don’t always plan ahead for the holiday season. Think I went a bit of script. But you get the message. Lol.

Be safe while shopping, be aware of your surroundings and locations.

 

 

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL. 

 

 

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What Have I Been Up To!

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by Petite Breaux 

 

 

 

Last movie I saw on the big screen.

My mother is in town from Kansas City Mo visiting for a while.

Last weekend we went to see the movie “The Accountant” with Ben Affleck. download-2I give it a 7, something was missing from the movie. It had action and drama but some parts seemed to drag. Overall, I would say hmm, I liked it. I liked the concept of

 

 

 

The Holidays are upon us.

Halloween night tried to decorate outside of the home a little, getting in the spirit of it all. Last minute decision to put makeup on my face and dress all in black while I sit outside with a pumpkin full of candy as I wait for my little trick or treaters.

Makeup didn’t turn out as expected, maybe next year I will try again.

What I am watching on Netflix.

I started watching a Netflix show “Z NATION” the apocalypse, it’s corny but I can’t stop watching.

Citizen Z has alerted everyone to a bounty for safely getting The Murphy to California, which he was lying just so that Murphy would no be killed, but this has caused all sorts of chaos. Everyone is now out to kill one another for this so-called bounty money.

Everything is zombies and walking dead. The guy called DJ Qualls (Citizen Z), he has played in mv5bnzg0nte4njmwn15bml5banbnxkftztgwoty3ntc2nje-_v1-_sx93_sy140_several other movies, but I remember him from Hustle and Flow. Did he get his cheeks lifted or Botox or something? I read about him being a cancer survivor, pray he continues to stay in good health and continues with his acting career. He is funny.

 

Update on Children’s book.

Children’s book as I have stated before has been completed, but there is one issue of finding someone to do illustrations. I just want stencil illustrations in black and white, one illustration per chapter. Once I get this taken care of, I can send the manuscript for publishing through Createspace. Hopefully, this task can be completed within the next three weeks.

What I’m writing.

Absolutely nothing! I need to be writing my next short stories.

I am getting back into my schedule of writing, I had taken a break and it’s hard getting back in the saddle. Between work, exercise, Rosetta Stone and all other minor things that come up, it’s hard to sit down and write. No more excuses, if I plan to get these stories completed, I must write even if it’s only fifteen minutes per day.

Will be updating you again soon, until then, keep smiling.

Oh! One more thing before I go.

2016-11-23-06-00-03No matter where you are, I pray that you have a safe and loving holiday. Safe travels to all,  arrive unharmed to your destination. Enjoy your time spent with family and friends. Love, peace, respect and happiness.

 

 

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35 YEAR CLASS REUNION

October 19, 2016

“Class Reunion “

Flew home on Southwest airlines to Kansas City, MO.  FL Schlagle High School Class of ’81’ 35-year reunion (Kansas City, Ks.) It was my first time attending, had a really great time. It was good seeing old friends and classmates. Will be in attendance for the 40th. Just a few pictures of the fun.

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On top of the reunion, Earl and I painted the exterior of my mother’s house. What an ordeal, trying to paint a house in three days at a time frame of 7 hours or less a day. We had help for one day, which was an advantage . We finished and it looks nice.  That’s me looking like a little boy. img_07251img_07261